Its Going to Be Alright

It has been very emotional for me. I have laughed and cried and laughed and cried. I just have not known what to do. So I have decided to encourage myself for the long journey ahead. The journey of losing all this weight that I have gained over the years. My oh my. 233 lbs. Where do I even start. Its all so daunting. But I have to start somewhere so here is where I will start.  I have a full time job and I am a full time student so here is my preliminary plan

1. Change my diet. No fried. Little white. Lots of fruits and vegetables. For snacking I am going to load my fridge with applesauce, raisins, carrots, peanut butter fruits and vegetables. I am going to eat breakfast daily and snack the day away. Yeah. I used to do this before so I basically know my way around. Tomorrow evening, I am heading to trader Joes with a 100 dollar budget to get my groove on. Wish me well.  Hahahahahahaha.

2. A lot of my success is going to be dependent on the resolution of this strange disorder that I have. So I have to take my medicines religiously at 8pm every night. Yeah. And all doctors appointment's must not be missed. I am currently searching for a psychiatrist who specializes in eating disorders.

3. My family has been warned so modification of the environment is not an issue sort of.

4. Support. Thankfully, my elder sister is also loosing weight so I will buddy up with her and open up to her with every struggle that I have and listen to her. I also have my doctor and nutritionist so when I am in need I will reach out.

5. Ok. Now exercise. So I have told you before that I have learnt how to exercise but I am limited by time constraints so here is the deal. I must workout on any day I am free. Also, I am just still recovering from the back injury. But exercise I need to. I will restrict my workouts to two hours. 1 hour on the elliptical, 30 minutes weights and abs, 15 minute stretches and 10 minute steam room. LETS GO THERE. And guess what I will dragging my sister along cause she is also on a weight loss journey.  This week I cant exercise cause I have EXAMS AND STUFF. But next week on the 23rd ( which is a sunday, I will go before service), then 24th  25th I work so no exercise and then 26th and 27th. YAY.

So here is what happened today. This morning I was RAVENOUS and so I had a big breakfast. I had 120 calorie greek yogurt, then oatmeal (1cup) with half and half and splenda, then 1 cup of coffee (no sweetner but with dairy creamer) then unsweetened passion tea, then 2 hard boiled eggs and some cornbeef hash (yikes too much oil. I know. I wont do it next time).

At 11am I had apple sauce and carrots with peanut butter (yum yum).  Lunch was 3pm with back chicken quaters (breast and wing) (Unfortunately it was quite dry and hard so I couldnt really enjoy it) and then 1 cup potatoes and green beans. (Next time I will skip the potatoes and just do green beans). On the positive side I skipped the bread roll with butter (YAAAAAAAAAAYYYYYYYYYY).  After all this I was still soo hungry so I had boneless, skinless tilapia fillet wrapped in cous cous (which should be less than 200 calories). Desert was a 100 calorie cookie pack. (This girl likes her sweets). Tonight I will have pepper soup and tilapia fish with lots of pepper so that I drink drink drink........

Hey thats the plan. Wish your girl luck.


Now to the encouragement. This is a song from Cher that I love so much. I listen to it anytime I feel down and it definately lifts my spirits. Enjoy.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=p7P9aDgnEHI