Film trick or weight loss

Hello my peoples,

Its been about 9 days since I got control over my weird affliction. Ok. So something strange happened to me. I went to bed at 12midnight and slept like a baby. I did not even get up to pee and guess what......... I DID NOT EAT {yaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaayyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy}.

My back has started to misbehave again and so I could not got to the gym this  morning .I am about to write the doctor about my back.

So I woke up and went to the bathroom and voided. You know pee but no poop. And ten I stepped on the scale. 229. Seriously. No it cant bee. Strepped on it again 228.8. Now I don't know what to make of this. it is either film trick or weight loss but either way I don't want to dwell on it. Now  I have an obsession with the scale. I weigh my self 100 times a day and I know that this obsession is not healthy so I have decided to weigh my self only once a week and it would be either on sunday morning or on Monday morning. In order to be able to achieve this, I am going to put the scale in a hidden place in the bathroom. You know what they say........ OUT OF SIGHT IS OUT OF MIND.

Now I have decided not to diet again. Dieting is too restrictive and punitive and it actually destroys your metabolism. A friend of mine wanted to sell me a pack of some nonsense called oxidation diet. I bad her farewell. Another friend of mine is doing some stuff called sweedish diet. I have done all that madness in times past and it did not help me. I currently have a months supply of nutrisystem in my closet. You see I have come to understand that diets don't work in the long term(they only lead to the yoyo)  and that is why the united states has a very large dieting industry and yet almost 30% of the population is overweight. Something is wrong with this picture. If we spend all these money on diets then we should be underweight. But the contrary is the reality. Hence dieting is not the solution. A reorientation and a new relationship with food, a natural holistic relationship. Like someone once said "Let food be your medicine and let your medicine be your food". Its true. VERY TRUE. I have been killing my self with what I eat and the way I look at food and now ITS ALL ABOUT TO CHANGE.  I have decided to practice what I call mindful eating. Eathing healthy foods. Listening to my body and relearning how to eat. More fruits and vegetables, pulses, who grains, seafood, nuts and berries. Those kinds of things. For many years I have battled the fears of fat. I have been oppressed by this strange behavior of mine and  now I want peace. That's all I want. Peace and freedom and I am earning my peace and freedom.

So this morning I was not ravenous but was hungry. So I had an 80 calorie pack of greek yogurt at around 8am. At 12 noon I had a super salad with boiled chilled carrots and spring mix and hummus for the dressing and rotisserie chicken. After lunch I was still a bit hungry and so I dashed into 7 eleven and bought babybel cheese (100 cals ) and string cheese 70 cals. I was at clinicals all day and worked super hard. In the evening I was struck with this terrible headache. It might be the cheese or stress or hunger or a combination of all. So I went into panda express. I ordered the combo plate. Half steamed vegetables, half chow mein. Teriyaki chicken without the sauce, and Bejing beef. I estimate the plate to be about 700 calories. And there is the mindful eating principle at play. I had steamed vegetables instead of rice. And the chow mein is loaded with vegetables. The only downside to this meal is that it is greasy and I at it late in the day.

I am about to experiment with black beans hummus Nigerian Style. I boiled some black beans like they do in chipotle  (with bay leaves) Mexican barbecue.  I will tell you all about it  in my next post titled Hummus and Ewa Aggoyin, Two sides of the same coin. 

Ok so my phone fell and now I have to order a new one. Otherwise all is well. Its time to go.